看着大家欢乐的样子。我要学习怎么学会放下和珍惜。
我一双手，肯定不能拥有所有我想要的东西。
就这样，握着我身旁的就好。
在不一样的地方。有不一样的生活。没说哪里比较好。比较不好。就这样。乖乖的接受就好。

父神，我现在要敞开我的心，以一颗喜乐的心去对待我周围的人。

妈妈的话

和朋友在车里跟妈妈对话。
朋友说，auntie,锡康很坏！
妈妈回答，他坏啊？他坏的话世界上就没有好人了咯！

心里莫名的感动了一下。很多下啦其实。
之后回想起来，心里甜得很是滋味。
可能就因为是从妈妈口中说出来的吧。
虽然或许只是场面话来的，但，我就是爽了啊。

Though' we know it's hard to say goodbye, but thank you for the memory you left behind.

A line of lyrics written by my bro in Christ.
Although it is not written for me but a sis who is now at heavenly home with our Mighty God.
but I just want to paraphrase this sentence to my life.
Keep repeat and repeat while listening this song made by weichien.
I started to recall my whole 2013 life.

the year I experience the most compared to the previous years. (every year I also say this =.=')
But really, the most complicate experience are in my 2013.
For the very first time, I need to start a new life. To restart my life from zero.
No friend, No status, No one will care me besides God.
Last year, I have to live alone in house, I have no worries at all. Cz that is the place that I grew up, That is the environment that I knew, That is the place where my social circle located.
But the days in Sarawak, is totally different with the days in Banting.
a month before I come here, I already feel insecure.

But now, what I can only say is, I have nothing to worry, nothing to scare, nothing can bring me down, as long as I am always with God!

Ya, is really hard to say goodbye. The harder it is, the more I not willing to leave.
Still remember the days or the week before I leave, a lot of farewell did by different gang of friends.
I did have a lot of friends, and a lot of different experience memories with them.
 For me, every single of them are so important for me.
They shaped up who I am now, they showed me how important I am in their life, in fact, they all are the single puzzle who linked together and form my life.
without them, I am not who I am now.

I started to miss they all while I am typing this post.
How I wish I can go back to meet every of them now! but at the meantime, I also worry, our relation are change when we meet again.

For many times I ask myself, who am I? I am just a simple person with a lot of blessings from lovely God.
Till now, 20, I am.
I had been a teacher, although I never take the course to become teacher.
I had been a coach, although I haven't a high achievement in the volleyball life.
I had been a different character for different character in my life.
A good student in mouth of my teacher.
A good child in mouth of the elders.
A good servant in mouth of sis and bro in Christ.
A good person in mouth of my friends.
For certain persons, I am a bad guy too.
I am just perfect to become an imperfect person.

But, so what? I need to say goodbye to all those things...
God want me to restart from zero. In a brand new environment, the place that no one know the origin of me.
In front of any person, I am just a guy. A university student. that's all.
who will care about my past? in fact, I also won't care anyone's past.
Humble, the most difficult thing that I need to learn. For many years, I'm studying this lesson, but till now I'm not yet graduate from this course..haiz.
God's plan over people's. He always prepare the best road for me. for me to learn, for me to grow, to construct a better me, a 'me' that He like.
nothing to do, nothing to complain, just believe to God.

Good bye! all my stuff in 2013. A new me is now here holding a blank record book. Start the life with zero!
So, 2014! I am ready to accept the challenges! Come! put the horse come~